Hi Dear Friends!
Well, we are back. I almost did not go to the cabin. Everything was fine and dandy. Troy and I were just ready to leave and the very last thing I do whenever I leave home for any length of time is to open the bible and say a prayer. I let the bible just fall open and trust in Gods words. When I opened the bible, I saw Lia’s picture next to it. And that was it. The thought of leaving home without her just tore me apart. I broke down and cried. Troy just let me cry and held on to me. He was feeling the same thing. It just felt wrong to leave our home without Lia. She had been looking forward to this getaway with all her family for months. That is all she had talked about. After what seemed like forever, I stood up and went to the bible to see and read the scriptures before I left. Another thing I do every time. The bible had fallen open to Matthew 6:13-7:12 Which is part of the Sermon on the Mount. A lot of inspiration to keep my heart open.
I thanked the Lord for sending me his message. I could go on now.
We keep our travel trailer at the cabin. It acts kind of like our own little cabin. After greeting everyone that was all ready there, we went to our trailer to unpack things. As soon as you walk into the trailer the first thing you see is the couch. All of Lia’s “critters” are lined up on the back of it and her stack of blankets and quilts are there. Even a pair of her PJ’s were by her pillow all ready for when she returned.
I knew this was going to be a difficult moment. I felt myself ready to break down again. But, I stopped myself immediately. I have to tell myself that she is just on a trip, adventure, getaway, vacation…whatever. She is fine and she will return as fast as we can make that happen.
So, the first thing I did was to light a candle in the trailer. I have lit one at home everyday she has been gone. I will continue to do so until she returns. No matter where I am, a candle will be lit. Good thing I have thrifted a lot of candles! LOL
I didn’t sleep very good the first night. But, that happens to me when I go anywhere. That first night not in your regular bed. I got up early, made a pot of coffee and sat down with my thoughts. I looked out the window and saw the cabin, with smoke coming from the chimney, wafting into the magnificent wall of huge pine trees. Two huge Blue jays chasing each other in out of the trees. It was so quiet. So peaceful. I could swear I felt my blood pressure lower. Stress just left my body. This is where I needed to be.
Do you have a place like that? A place that fills your heart with love, smiles and peace? That is what the cabin does for me. It is the closest thing to heaven on earth for me. It is where I feel my grandparents the most as well. They have been gone for 20+ years now but, their spirits are at this cabin. They built it in the early 1960’s.
As I sat there drinking my coffee and taking in the beauty around me, I felt both of my grandparents hold me, sitting there with me. They comforted me. They knew my heart was hurting and they let me know that things will be okay.
I am so grateful for the relationship I had with my grandparents when they were still on earth. They were perfect grandparents and then became wonderful friends. We had a lot of fun and silly times together. I was the first granddaughter and I think that created a very special bond between us.
I am so glad I went to the cabin for this little getaway. It recharged my body, mind and soul. Being with my family both in body and in spirit was just what I needed. We all hold pain and loss in our hearts and that won’t go away until Lia comes home. But, we are a strong family. And an amazingly loving, close and generous family.